One year later

Wow, here we are one year and 6 days after my last posting here. So much has happened!



My possible F-buddy, turned into an actual F-BUDDY for the summer, and then NOTHING for a while, then an occasional date, then a steady date. Skip forward to today - he's officially moved in and sharing the rent and other expenses here.



And it seems as though it took a while for things to get here, but a year is really not that much time.



And I thought it was going to be so great - here we were, two adults without minor children around, both hot for each other, we could have so much fun, anytime we wanted . . .



And now, I sorta feel like I'm the night attendant at a nursing home . . .



He gets up early - I knew that, but geeze, even though he doesn't have to go home to get ready for work, he's still out of bed by 5:30 am (his alarm goes off at 5:00), and he leaves the house about 6:15 to 6:30. So, I am awakened by the alarm at 5:00, by his coffee machine, by him up and down the steps, the door to the room where he dresses, and then he comes in to say "bye". So somewhere around 6:30 I get to go back to "sleep", and my alarm starts going off at 7:00. Now, I'm a night owl (it's midnight and I'm hardly ready for bed), and I've arranged my work hours to accommodate (normal start time is 8:30 - mine is 9:00 with only 1/2 an hour for lunch). Living with him costs me 2 hours of sleep every night!



Okay, you're saying, so go to bed earlier! Been there, tried that. Doesn't work for me - if I'm not getting some, or going to sleep, I am out of bed. I can't lay there for hours contemplating sleep. If I lay there awake and frustrated while he's falling asleep, and I get up, I get questioned. Why did you leave? What time did you come to bed?



If I ask for sex, I get the third degree as well, or "accused" of being demanding or overly sexual. Difficult to figure out the best middle ground. Shit, tonight I asked if he'd rub my back while we were watching TV, and his hand never left the lower third of the area just above the buttocks. Later, when I tried to clarify that I wanted a "whole backrub", he claimed that I "always" wanted just the lower third of my back rubbed - UM, NO, not true - he's done a back rub about 4 times this whole year, how does that make anything "always"???